Update time - swimming experience, phallo countdown & new followers/messages
this was the look on my face just as I got to the pool to go swimming at a public pool for the first time since beginning my transition. safe to say I was bricking it a bit! but I went with my 2 of my brothers and 4 of their mates. and it ended up being great. obviously once in the water no one really sees your chest, and walking up to the slides etc I was always stood next to my bro who is ridiculously muscular so I figured anyone that looks our way will be much more interested in checking him out. i had a great time and look forward to going again.
in other news, it’s exactly 6 weeks until my first stage of phalloplasty. I can offically say it’s next month now which is crazy. I need to talk to my family and see if anyone will bring me back from London, as even though it’d be doable I’d rather not get public transport.
also i’m now coming up to 22 months on testosterone and 14 months post top surgery. I’m gonna try and do a video soon but I’ve been crazy busy the last month, actual plans and socialising, it’s madness.
I’ve some how acquired about 300 more followers in the last month as well, and I have about 65 messages, many of which are anons saying they like my eyes/face, which I do appreciate these obviously but if they’re anon I don’t post them as it would take over from the info etc on my blog. and I’m sorry if you’ve asked me a question that i haven’t yet answered, I rarely log onto this blog unless I’m posting something, will do my best to answer asap :)
i did use to pack fairly often, but eventually it ended up making me feel worse about myself. i guess because it made me more aware that what was there wasnt actually a part of me. i also just kept worrying that it would shift about and make me look like i have a constant boner, i still some times wear it if i have really skinny jeans on but not very often.
i have the extra small mr limpy. and got it with a built in stp from a guy in one of the uk trans man groups who makes them. i tried for a while with the stp but just couldnt get the hang of it to the point where i got comfortable enough to use it in public. i would probably take it if i went camping but that’s about it. here is the link to the UrinAll STP for anyone interested. http://www.urinall.com/home/
it will thankfully be free (kind of), it’s with the NHS, so i say kind of, since i work and pay taxes. but i will not be paying out any kind of sum for the surgery. just transport and stuff. I will be having surgery performed by the London team, and the main doctor is Mr Nim Christopher.
So today I bought my first tank top! Actually think it looks pretty okay, not use to seeing myself in a tank top so it’s kinda odd, but it’s been so damn hot lately. Ignore the concentration face I almost dropped my phone hah.
I also got an email from the Sara with the lower surgery team today, with my admission letter and surgery info attached! So that’s exciting, things are kinda getting real now. I will upload both letters in a separate post shortly :)
Best day ever!!! I HAVE A LOWER SURGERY DATE!!
So I got this tattoo done today and I’m ridiculously in love with it even though it’s not finished yet (yes I flipped the image so the quote is the right way round ha), so that was a great day to begin with. Then I get home, and get a call from Sara from the London surgery team, to tell me there has been a cancellation on the 12th September and I can have it if I want. So ofcourse I accepted without hesitation. She said that I will be admitted the evening before, and that she will email me all the details and info that I need. So yes! I will enjoy the summer and then first stage of forearm phallo! So happy today :)
Lower surgery - so I rang up to book surgery a couple of weeks ago, expecting (after being told by GIC doctor, and the surgeon) that it would be around July/August and when I finally managed to get hold of the lady I needed to speak to, she tells me that they’re currently booked right up to October! As they are just doing one surgery a week. So after telling her I had been told to expect summer, and that they always want to get you in for surgery within 3 months of consultation, she just says that there is nothing she can do and that she’ll contact me nearer October to book. So I’m rather concerned that we didn’t even book a provisional date, and that maybe when it gets to october she’ll say they’re booked another few months up. I’ve been emailing the other guy (andy) that people have said to get hold of but I’ve sent 3 and he hasn’t replied to any. So I’m gonna wait a month, try and enjoy the summer then ring up again. Pretty gutted.
In other news, another topless beach experience happened, and I went swimming in the for the first time in like 6 years :)
Got this letter today! It’s my copy of what the surgeon wrote to my doctor at the GIC and to my GP. Gives a brief overview of what surgeries I will be having as part of my phalloplasty :) ringing them up tmoro to try and find out an idea of likely surgery date! If anyone wanted to know what each stage of forearm phalloplasty involves with the london team, here you go :)
my chest one year post op. (no flash on first pic and with flash on the close ups)
I had double incision with free nipple grafts, done with Professor Phil Drew in Cornwall.
i have regained full tactile sensation in about 95% of my chest, the other 5% has kind of a tingly/slightly numb feeling when touched. i have that same strange feeling but less of it, in my nipples.
i have been using kelo-cote once or twice a day for just over 3 months now and i think it’s been doing well. the parts of my scars that went hyper trophic you can see are now becoming alot lighter in the centre and just pinkish around the edges, the parts that didnt become thick/raised are fading really well i think.
and even though i’ve said before and it’s in my faq, i’ll say here that my scars are this shape because i was small chested and the surgeon said he did not have enough skin to bring down into a straighter line after grafting my nipples. yes i wish it wasnt the case, but what can you do, i am rarely topless infront of people and it makes no difference with a top on, so i’m pretty happy over all.