Anonymous said:

Do you pack and/or use STPs? If so, what do you use or recommend?

i did use to pack fairly often, but eventually it ended up making me feel worse about myself. i guess because it made me more aware that what was there wasnt actually a part of me. i also just kept worrying that it would shift about and make me look like i have a constant boner, i still some times wear it if i have really skinny jeans on but not very often. 

i have the extra small mr limpy. and got it with a built in stp from a guy in one of the uk trans man groups who makes them. i tried for a while with the stp but just couldnt get the hang of it to the point where i got comfortable enough to use it in public. i would probably take it if i went camping but that’s about it. here is the link to the UrinAll STP for anyone interested. http://www.urinall.com/home/

1 week ago with 2 notes



Anonymous said:

How much will it cost for your lower surgery? What doctor is doing it and where? How are you paying for it? Sorry for all the questions, I am just curious.

it will thankfully be free (kind of), it’s with the NHS, so i say kind of, since i work and pay taxes. but i will not be paying out any kind of sum for the surgery. just transport and stuff. I will be having surgery performed by the London team, and the main doctor is Mr Nim Christopher. 

3 weeks ago with 4 notes



Aged 18 and aged 22. Almost 21 months on t.

Aged 18 and aged 22. Almost 21 months on t.

3 weeks ago with 1270 notes
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So today I bought my first tank top! Actually think it looks pretty okay,  not use to seeing myself in a tank top so it’s kinda odd, but it’s been so damn hot lately. Ignore the concentration face I almost dropped my phone hah.  
I also got an email from the Sara with the lower surgery team today, with my admission letter and surgery info attached!  So that’s exciting, things are kinda getting real now. I will upload both letters in a separate post shortly :)

So today I bought my first tank top! Actually think it looks pretty okay, not use to seeing myself in a tank top so it’s kinda odd, but it’s been so damn hot lately. Ignore the concentration face I almost dropped my phone hah.
I also got an email from the Sara with the lower surgery team today, with my admission letter and surgery info attached! So that’s exciting, things are kinda getting real now. I will upload both letters in a separate post shortly :)

3 weeks ago with 52 notes
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Best day ever!!! I HAVE A LOWER SURGERY DATE!!
So I got this tattoo done today and I’m ridiculously in love with it even though it’s not finished yet (yes I flipped the image so the quote is the right way round ha), so that was a great day to begin with. Then I get home, and get a call from Sara from the London surgery team,  to tell me there has been a cancellation on the 12th September and I can have it if I want. So ofcourse I accepted without hesitation.  She said that I will be admitted the evening before, and that she will email me all the details and info that I need. So yes! I will enjoy the summer and then first stage of forearm phallo!  So happy today :)

Best day ever!!! I HAVE A LOWER SURGERY DATE!!
So I got this tattoo done today and I’m ridiculously in love with it even though it’s not finished yet (yes I flipped the image so the quote is the right way round ha), so that was a great day to begin with. Then I get home, and get a call from Sara from the London surgery team, to tell me there has been a cancellation on the 12th September and I can have it if I want. So ofcourse I accepted without hesitation. She said that I will be admitted the evening before, and that she will email me all the details and info that I need. So yes! I will enjoy the summer and then first stage of forearm phallo! So happy today :)

4 weeks ago with 52 notes
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Updates! 
Lower surgery - so I rang up to book surgery a couple of weeks ago, expecting (after being told by GIC doctor, and the surgeon) that it would be around July/August and when I finally managed to get hold of the lady I needed to speak to, she tells me that they’re currently booked right up to October! As they are just doing one surgery a week. So after telling her I had been told to expect summer, and that they always want to get you in for surgery within 3 months of consultation,  she just says that there is nothing she can do and that she’ll contact me nearer October to book. So I’m rather concerned that we didn’t even book a provisional date, and that maybe when it gets to october she’ll say they’re booked another few months up. I’ve been emailing the other guy (andy) that people have said to get hold of but I’ve sent 3 and he hasn’t replied to any. So I’m gonna wait a month, try and enjoy the summer then ring up again. Pretty gutted. 

In other news, another topless beach experience happened, and I went swimming in the for the first time in like 6 years :)

Updates!
Lower surgery - so I rang up to book surgery a couple of weeks ago, expecting (after being told by GIC doctor, and the surgeon) that it would be around July/August and when I finally managed to get hold of the lady I needed to speak to, she tells me that they’re currently booked right up to October! As they are just doing one surgery a week. So after telling her I had been told to expect summer, and that they always want to get you in for surgery within 3 months of consultation, she just says that there is nothing she can do and that she’ll contact me nearer October to book. So I’m rather concerned that we didn’t even book a provisional date, and that maybe when it gets to october she’ll say they’re booked another few months up. I’ve been emailing the other guy (andy) that people have said to get hold of but I’ve sent 3 and he hasn’t replied to any. So I’m gonna wait a month, try and enjoy the summer then ring up again. Pretty gutted.

In other news, another topless beach experience happened, and I went swimming in the for the first time in like 6 years :)

4 weeks ago with 18 notes
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Facial changes - Pre t, 9 months and 20 months (yesterday)

Facial changes - Pre t, 9 months and 20 months (yesterday)

1 month ago with 69 notes
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Got this letter today!  It’s my copy of what the surgeon wrote to my doctor at the GIC and to my GP.  Gives a brief overview of what surgeries I will be having as part of my phalloplasty :) ringing them up tmoro to try and find out an idea of likely surgery date!
If anyone wanted to know what each stage of forearm phalloplasty involves with the london team,  here you go :)

Got this letter today! It’s my copy of what the surgeon wrote to my doctor at the GIC and to my GP. Gives a brief overview of what surgeries I will be having as part of my phalloplasty :) ringing them up tmoro to try and find out an idea of likely surgery date! If anyone wanted to know what each stage of forearm phalloplasty involves with the london team, here you go :)

1 month ago with 16 notes
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my chest one year post op.  (no flash on first pic and with flash on the close ups)

I had double incision with free nipple grafts, done with Professor Phil Drew in Cornwall. 

i have regained full tactile sensation in about 95% of my chest, the other 5% has kind of a tingly/slightly numb feeling when touched. i have that same strange feeling but less of it, in my nipples. 

i have been using kelo-cote once or twice a day for just over 3 months now and i think it’s been doing well. the parts of my scars that went hyper trophic you can see are now becoming alot lighter in the centre and just pinkish around the edges, the parts that didnt become thick/raised are fading really well i think. 

and even though i’ve said before and it’s in my faq, i’ll say here that my scars are this shape because i was small chested and the surgeon said he did not have enough skin to bring down into a straighter line after grafting my nipples. yes i wish it wasnt the case, but what can you do, i am rarely topless infront of people and it makes no difference with a top on, so i’m pretty happy over all.

1 month ago with 9 notes
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This week will be 1 whole year post top surgery! And 20 months on testosterone. I also some how hit 900 followers today! Such madness all you people interested in my face and ramblings hah.
I also emailed the guy who does the london team surgery dates today about when I should expect surgery to be so hopefully should hear from him in the next few days :)

1 month ago with 100 notes
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