i no longer have staples in my bum! yes!

2 weeks post op today. district nurses just took the staples out of my bum, it only took about 5 minutes, i asked them to stop a couple of times after a few that really stung, but it wasn’t too bad.
feels so much better already. need to make sure i don’t bend too much now though and rip/stretch the scar line before it fully heals over.

12 hours ago with 16 notes
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photos of my arm 11 days post op from forearm phallo (under a cut for the squeamish)

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2 days ago with 18 notes
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Lower surgery update. Thursday 18th September.
so everything was going really well at home, mobility coming back, eating properly again, then tuesday i started getting itchy throughout the day and rashes started appearing. they spread everywhere and by the evening it became unbearably painfully itchy, to the point that i was crying. The Out of hours GP came out to look at me and suspected that i caught an infection so he wanted me to go into hospital. along came the ambulance guys, mum came in with me. i got given IV antibiotics on the way to hospital, and then blood tests and got checked over by a surgeon once there at about 12.30am. everything looked like it’s healing fine and that I’ve just had an allergic reaction to something. just nobody knows what still :/ so i was allowed to go home at 4am and given a pack of antihistamines. my step dad came to pick us up and we got home just after 5am. the rash is still angry looking but i’m nowhere near as itchy. i don’t know what i would’ve done without my mum, step dad and girlfriend. so incredibly grateful for everything they’re all doing for me at the moment. fingers crossed this will be the only complication throughout recovery.

4 days ago with 46 notes
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I’m alive guys! spent last night in HDU, then had a bit of an ordeal this morning which i will explain later.  but all is well, my phallus apparently has a good strong pulse hah so that’s great. I’m back in my room now, pain isn’t too bad at all right now,  barely used my morphine button this evening.  hopefully get some great sleep tonight.

I’m alive guys! spent last night in HDU, then had a bit of an ordeal this morning which i will explain later. but all is well, my phallus apparently has a good strong pulse hah so that’s great. I’m back in my room now, pain isn’t too bad at all right now, barely used my morphine button this evening. hopefully get some great sleep tonight.

1 week ago with 97 notes
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surgery day. 7.50am

woken up at 6.30 by the nurse, showered with the hibi scrub again. got the sexy gown, stockings and net pants on. a guy i met yesterday who’s had his second stage came in to see me and wish me luck as he gets discharged while I’m in surgery.
a different nurse and a student nurse came in just now to go through my paperwork and check i have my gown etc on. They said to take my gauges out and i was like nooo i put plastic ones in! so it’s okay i get to keep them in :)
just waiting for surgeon and anaesthetist to come see me now then off i go. aaahhhh.

2 weeks ago with 16 notes
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Lower Surgery - made it to the hospital! surgery in the morning

I am currently sat in my room at The Spire Hospital in Slough, surgery is set for 8ish tmoro morning. All the staff have been lovely so far, the hospital is a private hospital i think, so it’s pretty fancy. 

so far today, i was admitted at 6pm, was shown to my room, and it’s really quiet as there is only 3 other patients here at the moment! but apparently will be around 90 by the end of the week. and i had a ham sandwich.

a doctor came in and took 4 vials of blood earlier, a nurse did my blood pressure, bmi, mrsa swabs (all the usual things) and went through what will happen post op tmoro and showed me the High Dependency Unit where i will be staying tmoro night. she said i will wake up with: oxygen mask, a drain, a catheter, and i cant remember the name of them but the cuffs that massage your legs to keep blood flow etc, and the self administering mophine drip thing. oh and also my arm will be massively bandaged up and be up in a foam sling thing.

so that’s all so far, i dont think i will be able to make a post tmoro, so if not i will post asap to let you all know i am alive :)

here are pics of my room, and the tshirt my mum bought me for when i get to hers next week for recovering.

2 weeks ago with 50 notes
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comparison of pride 2011 vs pride 2014.

comparison of pride 2011 vs pride 2014.

3 weeks ago with 394 notes
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for those of you who have been asking about my girlfriend, thought i’d post these so you can all appreciate her awesomeness xD she kindly filled in my lack of moustache in the first pic :3 if you appreciate Enter Shikari, motorbikes, kittens and tattoos you should go follow her here xD 

also, i got my tattoo finished today, and after alot of deliberation about what time to get put on my pocket watch, i decided to do 10 past 10, as i started testosterone on the 10th october. so double meaning of t, plus something transition related without it being obvious :)

in other news, 17 days until my first lower surgery! shits getting real now.

1 month ago with 43 notes
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Happy updates! Change of surgery date & awesome people

imagemy current face, now 22 months on testosterone, and haven’t shaved in ages. contemplated trimming the beard but girlfriend was not a fan of that idea. i quite like it, hopefully will fill in the jawline patches soon!

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imagei will explain the surgery changes and these pictures, and an amazing family thing under *readmore* so i dont take up loads of space…

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1 month ago with 43 notes
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Update time - swimming experience, phallo countdown & new followers/messages
this was the look on my face just as I got to the pool to go swimming at a public pool for the first time since beginning my transition. safe to say I was bricking it a bit! but I went with my 2 of my brothers and 4 of their mates. and it ended up being great. obviously once in the water no one really sees your chest, and walking up to the slides etc I was always stood next to my bro who is ridiculously muscular so I figured anyone that looks our way will be much more interested in checking him out. i had a great time and look forward to going again.  in other news, it’s exactly 6 weeks until my first stage of phalloplasty. I can offically say it’s next month now which is crazy. I need to talk to my family and see if anyone will bring me back from London, as even though it’d be doable I’d rather not get public transport.  also i’m now coming up to 22 months on testosterone and 14 months post top surgery. I’m gonna try and do a video soon but I’ve been crazy busy the last month, actual plans and socialising, it’s madness.  I’ve some how acquired about 300 more followers in the last month as well, and I have about 65 messages, many of which are anons saying they like my eyes/face, which I do appreciate these obviously but if they’re anon I don’t post them as it would take over from the info etc on my blog. and I’m sorry if you’ve asked me a question that i haven’t yet answered, I rarely log onto this blog unless I’m posting something, will do my best to answer asap :)

Update time - swimming experience, phallo countdown & new followers/messages

this was the look on my face just as I got to the pool to go swimming at a public pool for the first time since beginning my transition. safe to say I was bricking it a bit! but I went with my 2 of my brothers and 4 of their mates. and it ended up being great. obviously once in the water no one really sees your chest, and walking up to the slides etc I was always stood next to my bro who is ridiculously muscular so I figured anyone that looks our way will be much more interested in checking him out. i had a great time and look forward to going again.
in other news, it’s exactly 6 weeks until my first stage of phalloplasty. I can offically say it’s next month now which is crazy. I need to talk to my family and see if anyone will bring me back from London, as even though it’d be doable I’d rather not get public transport.
also i’m now coming up to 22 months on testosterone and 14 months post top surgery. I’m gonna try and do a video soon but I’ve been crazy busy the last month, actual plans and socialising, it’s madness.
I’ve some how acquired about 300 more followers in the last month as well, and I have about 65 messages, many of which are anons saying they like my eyes/face, which I do appreciate these obviously but if they’re anon I don’t post them as it would take over from the info etc on my blog. and I’m sorry if you’ve asked me a question that i haven’t yet answered, I rarely log onto this blog unless I’m posting something, will do my best to answer asap :)

1 month ago with 38 notes
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